[It comes out shocked and quiet, and for the millionth time in the last few days, she doesn't know how to respond. Matthias had told her that he'd been thinking about the future with her before he'd been shot, but she hadn't really considered what that meant. Most of her fantasizing had taken place after, when she was alone and grieving at the Little Palace, and sometimes it had felt almost torturous. None of her dreams for them would ever be possible, after all, and even when she was at her most idealistic she knew it wouldn't have been easy. Neither of their countries would have accepted a drüskelle and a Grisha.
Hearing that Matthias was having the same thoughts is bittersweet. They're together here, and she'd die before she'd let anything change that, but she still isn't entirely sure what that means. Nina wipes her eyes, but that doesn't stop the ache of tears in her throat.]
He probably didn't want you to worry. He tries to shield people that way.
[Like he'd tried to shield her from the knowledge of who had killed him.]
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[It comes out shocked and quiet, and for the millionth time in the last few days, she doesn't know how to respond. Matthias had told her that he'd been thinking about the future with her before he'd been shot, but she hadn't really considered what that meant. Most of her fantasizing had taken place after, when she was alone and grieving at the Little Palace, and sometimes it had felt almost torturous. None of her dreams for them would ever be possible, after all, and even when she was at her most idealistic she knew it wouldn't have been easy. Neither of their countries would have accepted a drüskelle and a Grisha.
Hearing that Matthias was having the same thoughts is bittersweet. They're together here, and she'd die before she'd let anything change that, but she still isn't entirely sure what that means. Nina wipes her eyes, but that doesn't stop the ache of tears in her throat.]
He probably didn't want you to worry. He tries to shield people that way.
[Like he'd tried to shield her from the knowledge of who had killed him.]